IN MY HEAD: HIM, Lady Gaga,Outkast,Vampire Weekend,Chromeo

some loops lasted a few days, others the whole week or two…But there are lot more songs lingering in my head than usual…. Perhaps because it’s spring?…Yeah…that’s got to be it.

….In the flames you’ve tried so hard to extinguish with the  fear of failing.

I’ll write down everything I have learned……

Hello Hello Baby you called I can’t hear a thing……..

Stop calling stop calling I don’t want to think anymore….

Feeling good, feeling great….feeling great, feeling good, how are you?…

When I was 17, I had wrists like steel and I felt complete………

In December drinking Horchata……

Here comes a feeling you thought you’d forgotten

Vampire Weekend + Chromeo=Yay!

Be the Monkey Wrench

I read this article that Lady Gaga tweeted, an interview with the girl she made out with in her “Telephone” video. Her name is Heather Cassils. I thought it was great. They talked about many things, what it was like on set, as well as what she does. I thought it was cool that Heather is a performance artist.

I started off as a painter and a drawer, but I now do performance art, and I know that sounds absolutely terrifying, like you imagine people shoving yams up their asses, but I think of my work as moving paintings essentially. There aren’t a lot of massive, sweeping actions. It’s more like I use the fact that the image is live to try to capture and transfix people, because people can walk away from a painting. I do portraits of sorts.

I also loved her philosophy about how to manipulate imagery and the way people feel about things thus helping to change the world a bit.

Gone are the days when if you’re against the war you go and protest on the street. Protesting doesn’t stop wars anymore. Going to your gay pride rally is nice — it makes you feel good, but unfortunately we don’t live in that era anymore. The only way you can create social change is to insert yourself into the machine.

(interviewer) Right. And cast yourself as a monkey wrench.
Exactly.

I agree that rallies and things are nice and I agree with Heather that we don’t live in that world anymore. For a long time I’ve felt that those kinds of approaches seem to aggravate people more than ease them into something at least, as Heather says, nowadays.

Presenting “Monkey Wrenches” was the reason I decided to stop studying print journalism and started getting into video. It’s a lot harder to keep images from being exposed and therefore much harder to be indifferent about it. You sometimes have to read, at the very least, a paragraph or two of an article to have understanding and therefore react to it. On the other hand, you don’t have to want to watch an Image. It’s there, part of your environment and therefore you must absorb it. That’s just the way orientation works.

There are just a few examples that I thought of right away when she talked about being the change within the machine. I thought of when I was about 13 years old at the movies watching “Spawn” and my older sister proudly pointed out to me how much she loved that “Spawn” had an interracial couple and didn’t emphasize it.

I think about how much more I loved the show “24” when I started seeing it because they had a black president. It may be funny, silly but I almost feel like they helped Obama get elected because in a way they eased in the image of a black president in the minds of many people.

People think that these things don’t matter and that they’re hilariously insignificant. Are they? Think about psychology. Haven’t there been many times when you associated something you did or a reaction, an addiction with something insignificant? Something like stress? Such a simple answer  yet right there in that one word so many underlying “insignificants”.  “Stress” you could ask. “Stress from what?” “What about that makes you feel stressed?”  And then next thing you know your reaction or circumstance was because of what you associate with “being powerful” which is due to the way your much bigger stronger brother had treated you all of your life.

Hahaha pretty weird huh? Yeah I know but it happens. The more chaotic things may become the more you may realize how they are connected to the way you were conditioned. You didn’t know it at the time. You thought he was just being a jerk. But here you are, years later wondering how you got into this mess in the first place.

Everything you see, everything you hear, every place you find yourself has significance. And it seems the more subtle it is, the more powerful it becomes.

When “Won’t” Becomes Positive

In the midst of a breakdown concerning my job search, I came across an article in tweetmyjobs.com. My sister just told me about this website and they have tons of postings. Well the article used a Seinfeld episode as a reference for the ideal perspective one should use when looking for a job. I had to paste it on here.

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Interview tips from George Costanza

posted by: rich trombetta on 03/13/10

Interview tips from George Costanza

By Rich Trombetta
TweetMyJOBS.com
http://www.TweetMyJOBS.com
@tweetmyjobs

I was watching Seinfeld the other day and there was an episode that every job seeker should watch. George has been having a tough day and he proclaims that he is going to do the opposite of everything he has always done. He sees a woman looking at him so he goes over to talk with her. “My name is George. I am unemployed and live at home with my parents.” The woman smiles, leans towards him and extends her hand. “I’m Victoria. Hi.”

Click here to see the clip.

The lesson? You are who you are.

If you are not authentic and genuine in an interview, it will come through. It is worse to pretend to be someone you are not, get into a job, and then bam, the real you comes out and there is nothing but trouble.

If you get a rash when you wear a tie, Wall Street may not be for you. If you cringe at the site of blood, why are you interviewing at a hospital? If chew with your mouth open, well, that’s just bad manners and there is nothing in this blog that can help you.

Be true to your values and who you are inside. There is no better interview tip available. Make George Costanza proud!
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Perhaps trying to apply everywhere or anywhere  really wasn’t the best way. Since I am especially very lucky to lack lots of responsibilities I can afford to not look for any job. If this is advice being given to the general public who have a lot more to worry about than I do, than what am I worried about? Given my circumstance that’s even more reason for me not to settle; because I don’t have to.

I’d love to be at a certain stage in my life by 25 but unfortunately everything’s not going to come together as soon as I’d like. I have to accept that.

I had this conversation with my dad and I started freaking out because I’m turning 25 in about three months. I just have this idea of what it should be like and I want to get there at least in a small way before my birthday. I hate to think of myself as a 25 year old who hasn’t materialistically progressed since High School.

My dad said “Your problem is that you think everything that happens is because of you.

Couldn’t it be possible that it’s the present circumstances that are keeping you here? Yes there are thousands of jobs but how many MILLIONS of people are looking for them?”

He said “Just don’t stop trying.”

Ok Dad, Ok Seinfeld, I won’t.